Pfft. Pressure!

Life hasn’t been going well. Ever since June Holidays started the textbooks were immediately chalked off my to-do list and every spec of informative dust was swept into the farthest corners of my mind. The beginning of the holidays was like a trigger for the automatic shut down of my brain, once began, impossible to stop. I find myself wandering through realms of imagination instead of assiduous studying for my Mid-Year examinations.

Even now, I should be curled up warmly in the comforts of my bed, instead of staring at the screen and typing away my frustration for the whole world to see. The balmy weather has gotten me lazy, and to top off my wonderful day, my stomach began assaulting me in the evening in a malicious attempt at my life. You can expect me to be in a foul mood tomorrow, no doubt.

Rumors are flying about that people around me are working off litres of sweat to go through every single one of the practice papers for English Oral, and that really adds to the immense pressure that is already suffocating me. Moreover, I’m lagging horribly behind in all of my eight heavy subjects and I don’t have an iota of motivation to study them. In addition to academic stress, I find that I seem to have lost contact with the people around me as well. While I concede that this happens every once in a while and one does get used to it, it nevertheless affects my mood and emotions.

What I seem to be stressed about can seem perfectly superficial, but underneath are so many more undercurrents that I cannot express or bring up. For now, getting the tangible pressure off my shoulders is enough. To really unload I will have to call up my pastor and start my confession all over again even though said pastor has heard it a million times. O.O

Anyway, it’s time to go and work out some answers for my Oral tomorrow, to assuage my meaningless worries. At least I’ll sleep easy tonight.